Babies

So today a friend of mine gave birth to two beautiful healthy little babies (twins - a boy and a girl). Which really got me thinking. Children have always been an issue I've been a little contentious with. Should I have them? Should I not? Do I have the patience to be mother? Would I be a bad mother? Even from the time I was a teenager kids always weighed on my mind. I'm 'only' 24 at the moment and I know I have a few years yet to consider my options, but I also realize that peak baby-making time really isn't that far off, and I'm not as young as I may sometimes think I am.

Myself and this friend are not super close, but we're not distant friends either (ie. I went to her baby shower but probably won't visit her until she's out of the hospital kinda close). She had a c-section scheduled for today and the whole day at work all I could find myself wonder was 'did she have them yet? I wonder what she named them?" It was so exciting even though I'm not directly 'in' the situation. So I can only imagine the emotions that would go through me if it was, say, my best friend.

One thing I have decided in the last little while though is if I get to my mid-ish 30's, am single and decide I want kids - I will have them. Via adoption or whatever means. I've seen so many friend's of my mother who adore children and who've wanted them so badly, not have them just because they don't have a husband. I think that's the saddest situation. They're single, successful, 40-something women that happen to not have found Mr. Right (or whatever bull that is). Is it easier with two people? I would imagine yes. But I wouldn't deny something I truly wanted, just because of that? No.

Anyway, that is my rant for today. It seems that although I've just really started this blog that a lot of my entries have become more 'personal' than 'entertainment.' - Which is unexpected. It's nice just to get thoughts down somewhere that you might not necessarily say out loud.